September 29, 2014
Howddddyyyy fambam! So this email is all over the place this week....forgive me. So are y'all so excited for General Conference or WHAT?! I am stokkkeeedddd. I love President Thomas S. Monson and I know he is called of God to lead and guide us. Please pray this week and prepare! Bring some questions with you that you would like to have answered, and I promise God will hear and answer YOU. Because each of us is His child.
This little boy that I taught in Kanesville got baptized on Saturday. He taught me a very valuable lesson on the scriptures--"a chapter a day, keeps the devil away." HAHAHAAHHA. I LOVE CHILDREN. They speak the truth!
Our ward got a new bishopric on Sunday! Crazy sauce. No one saw it coming. It's like a whole entire fresh slate for the Cold Springs Ward. New missionaries. New leaders. Everything. I'm so excited! We have to and can only rely on God's will if we want to get ANYTHING done.
So something that I've finally learned is that the scriptures are incredible. I mean I knew that--but golly, I just love them so much. Whenever I need anything, I can turn to them and they bring me peace and comfort and joy and hope and I could really just go on and on. I love how one week I'm just on cloud 9 on happiness and then the next it's like BOOM. crash and burn. This mission stuff...woof. I swear, sometimes I'm like "it's okay....it will all be better one day..." Right? I mean that's what I have to keep telling myself haha or else I might go crazy. Being in a trio is HARD. A mission is HARD. I love it--but it's a struggle still. This whole companionship thing is constantly preparing me for my own family someday and Heavenly Father is a gem at reminding me of that when I have those moments when I'm about to pull my hair out. I'm learning a lot about myself that I never really knew before I left-- like love languages. WHY IS IT THAT I AM THE ONLY SISTER WHO'S LOVE LANGUAGE IS TOUCH? (well except S. Dumont...haha that is probably why we are the best of friends....xoxos) Like the case fambam is just touchy and lovey and huggy and I love that! Others are not....and it's been really hard for me at times...but that means I'm able to stretch and find ways to love and serve them the way they want to be loved and served. I will be honest, yesterday was rough. I felt like I was crying all day...and I just wanted a hug....but apparently lots of people are not about that life...and so there I was...secretly crying while studying....praying for a hug from my Heavenly Father in some way....and then I looked up and I knew that Heavenly Father heard ME. We still haven't been able to put things away so my picture frame that y'all sent me for Valentine's day is near by and it just tickled my heart. Yesterday I wore the outfit that I wore on my 1st day entering the MTC and there's you and me Ma, same outfit, and you've got your arms wrapped around me and we're just smiling away and it was right then that I got my hug. I literally felt it and I knew that everything was going to be okay.
Heavenly Father does that a lot--when we actually take the time to notice the little blessings all around us, we can't help but feel loved and have hope and know that "it's alright. Everything will be okay" When we open our HEARTS, not just our eyes, to all the blessings and miracles that God is giving each of us individually, we see things in a whole new perspective.
Back to the prep for the fambam life, I feel as if I'm truly preparing to be a mom. Each companionship has those moments--the glares of being corrected...hurtful comments every now and then...but like you have to roll it off and smile and even when your kids hurt your feelings--you still love them and want to help and do whatever you can to help them succeed. So with that, I apologize 1002x for each horrid thing I ever did and for all the love y'all still gave me. Thank you for never giving up on me. I love the atonement and I am so grateful for my Savior, Jesus Christ. Without him, I would be nothing. He leads and guides and CARRIES me through every single thing I go through. My desires have changed. I'm different. And it's because of him and his infinite love for me. The atonement is REAL and should be used every single second of every day. I mess up, I struggle, and I fall. But "He is always near me, though I do not see him there. And because he loves me dearly I am in his watchful care."
I love my Savior so much. I can do all things in Christ. And I will keep turning to him until the day I die. Heavenly Father knows me better than I know myself, and He knows what I need and what I can become. He's in the details of our lives and will continue to stretch us because He knows the incredible that are awaiting us.
I love y'all. I love this gospel. I love being a missionary. I love love. I love hugs. I love cupcakes. I love life.
We got to help with the Pancake Breakfast!
Apple picking party with the YSA ward. ( Young Single Adults)